Eh..

This house inspired me. I want to make a new portfolio. Not exactly sure what the theme is but I know I want this picture in it.

to Those who Told me I couldn't.

Well I grew up with people always telling me that it was just fantasy for me to do the things I dreamed of. Traveling for instance. I've always been a dreamer. But more than that, I've also always been a "do-er" haha for lack of better words. I don't see the point in just wishing for something to happen...you gotta make it happen. I don't want life to happen to me, I want to make life happen for me. Well finally I'm almost making it. I'm going to Iceland and Puerto Rico this summer. Puerto Rico is with my uncle and cousins but Iceland is by myself. It's a great feeling to know that I can do things without having to rely on anyone. I'm lucky that my dad installed that in me when I was little...he's always made my siblings and me work for whatever we wanted. And I am grateful. I'm an independent woman because of him. So for those who told it'd never happen...it is happening.

I just hope someone can eventually prove me wrong. I don't believe in men anymore. As much as I'm addicted to them, I don't believe them..they are all temporary highs. A question came yesterday, what do I look for in a guy? Truth is, I don't know anymore. I used to have many thoughts and lists as for what I wanted. But now I have found that I was looking for someone that probably doesn't exist. What do I look for now? Someone who can give it to me goooooood...bahahaha! I dont know...how I got here..one moment I'm miss goody two shoes, here-you-can-kiss-my-cheek-kid, and nowwww I'm....I'm messing with a different guy almost every month. Problem is, I dont really care either. I like it. I'm a diva and if you're offering, I'll probably take you up on that. I get a kick from being in danger. I like to explore, whether its a man's body or a forest(or neighborhood in houston's case). They love me though. Thursday night, five guys all told me that they were gunna marry me, no i wasnt fucking them and only two of em were drunk. lol The only thing I yearn for is to have more women friends...I need that company. It's good for me. Right now I only have two girl friends that I can really hang out with and talk to. I've always just had guy friends..