One Of Those Days

UGH...today's just one of those days where I can't stand being at home but feel stuck here...nope I'll get out..don't where I'm going but I'm going somewhere.

Favorite Song

Put Your Records On by Corinne Bailey Ray. I love it, just love it. I swear I listen to it almost three or four times a day. hahaha I can't over it, she's so awesome.

ummmmmmmmmmmm

I hope he's not falling in love with me. That's all I want to say.....other than I don't feel like working today but at least I have a job so I'll suck it up.

Today.

Went to a fotofest exhibition tonight. Was pretty cool, I talked to one of the photographers and he gave me some tips for learning about my style of photography. I will definitely take his advice on that. Only thing that was missing was I found myself wishing that my best friend was with me...sad thing though..I'm pretty sure I screwed up everything with him...he doesn't ever wanna hang out with me anymore. I miss him more than I'd like to admit.

I look kinda funny when I blow...BUT anywho...I like to dream! And that's what I did today. =]

Heart to Heart.

Well my best friend, Des, and I finally got together tonight and hung out. It's been a while since we have. She has a kid and a boyfriend and is working alot and I have lots of school and then I work too so we don't really get many chances. But we did tonight and it was pretty awesome. We opened up to each other pretty fast...usually I don't really but for some reason I did tonight. I liked it. We talked about everything that was going on in our lives and some things we need to do together, like get her a savings account and for both of us to make a budget! Very much needed. We've grown up a lot. It's awesome cuz we still support each other and can give advice to each other. We call each other out when we're retarded and it's good. We really do need each other. We grew up together and kinda have gone our separate ways...but we always come back together. I want to hang out with her more. She does too. We both have the problem of just having guy friends and we're both realizing how important for us as women to have women friends! It really is so different than a guy friend. It's an awesome thing. We both want more girl friends. To start off we have each other. I've missed her.

Other Blog.

Just wanted to let you know that I made another blog about family.

Here's the link ---> http://moons-are-awesome2.blogspot.com/

Leerone

Well this is new. I found some LEGAL free downloads for some music on the internet. But to download the songs you have to send in your email so they can send you a code to get them. So I did. The artist is this chic Leerone. I really like her stuff. =] But then I get an email from her, nothing special I suppose but I thought it was cool. I mean what artist sends you emails? It wasn't automated because first of all she said so and it didn't sound like it and she's been replying to me. Just a few emails but she's gunna let me know when she comes to my city. Maybe I'm just retarded and this happens to everybody but it's my first time so I think it's pretty cool. Maybe she'll get really famous someday and maybe I'll get to meet her in person and then I'll know a famous person! hahahaha overthinking this whole thing I know, but I don't care. It's rare for me to get emotional or overly excited so I think it's ok for me to every now and then.

A Little Change

I thought about making a new blog, but then I didn't want to go through that process again and then I would have to keep three up to date..sooooo I'm changing this blogs purpose some.

I would like to bring you readers (if i even have any) along for my journey of self discovery. I thought I knew who I was, but in truth I don't. I keep changing so now I have decided that I'm not single anymore. I am in a relationship with myself. Well that's half, it's dual relationship because God is here too.

So. Here's my first self discovery: I like hot tea while I write papers. I love coffee shops(NOT STARBUCKS!), it's always soothing there and interesting people go there.

Marriage.

Well on my way to class today, I was about to eat my breakfast in the car- trail mix, when I was sitting at a red light. But there was a guy on the corner with a sign that read "FOOD OR BLANKET" I try to help out when I can...my heart is always touched by these guys. So I rolled down my window and asked if he liked trail mix; he did and accepted it gratefully. Then he asks me if I knew what the number one problem why there's so much divorce these days was. I said because of the lack of communication. He says yeahhh but MARRIAGE is the number one cause..and that he's been alive 46 years and never got married. Now I don't agree with that, he was trying to joke with it..but I have a lot to say about marriage.

People get married without really knowing the person they're getting married to. They do it because they of what they "feel" and not what IS. Some people marry for money, some because they think that love=sex or sex=love, some because they're scared they'll never find anyone better, some because of pressure, some because of kids, and I'm sure there are many more reasons.

But most people don't understand that getting married is a commitment to another person, for BETTER OR WORSE. You're not gunna be happy all the time, people have their days. There will never be a person that you will NEVER have a problem with, especially if you're gunna live with them for the rest of your life. There are things that you gotta figure out and deal with before AND during your marriage. It's simply a never-ending process of discovering each other and helping each become the best they can be. For Christians also, helping your spouse get closer to God.

I wish that people would think about marriage more and respect it and see the awesome beauty of a truly good marriage.

There are those people too who see marriage as a trap or a cage. But you know, it's really freeing. If you marry the right person, you shouldn't have to worry about affairs or losing them to another. You don't have to be afraid to be alone. You don't have to have the pressure of trying to please multiple people, you just gotta please ONE. Your heart is with your spouse forever. Shouldn't have a need to worry about it breaking.

Now my brain is jumping everywhere so I'm gunna stop writing before I talk in circles and don't make any sense if I haven't already done that.